“No permanent career vacancy…”
The presentation "International students: Working in the UK." begins. Truly inspiring presentation to my mind.
“Tier 1 Post study work…”
“Must achieve 75 points for attributes”
“Must have a student status”
“Must show…”
“Must apply…”
“Must be eligible…”
- And every single day must prove that you are good enough to work in this country, - the thought completes in my mind immediately, - damn difficult… Go-o-o-o-od, is it exactly what I want ?”
We went to the presentation together – me and my friend Hysm just to find out how to prepare and what to expect, when an international student wants to stay in the UK. And after five minutes of the presentation I am already fed up with all these “Must be”, “Must show” and “Must have”.
- Ahh... This all really pisses me off! - I'm whispering to Hysm.
Seems he doesn't hear me - he is listening carefully.
“After five years you can apply for a permanent residence.”
Hysm nodding and saying quietly: "Five years. Good!"
-?!
- My parents, you know, have been in UAE for so many years, yet they can't get citizenship. The same for me - I’ve been living there all my life.
Hysm is Palestinian, but he never lived there, just went there a couple of times.
- So you want to be a British citizen then?
- Yes. You?
- ... (absent-minded look)
- Oh, seems you don't know yet...
The presentation continues, the girl from our Careers service is explaining other important things, but I am not listening to her anymore – I keep thinking about what my friend has just said: “He is a foreigner all his life. How does it feel - being a foreigner all your life?”
We don’t wait till the end of the presentation and leave earlier; we should go to the lecture now.
For Commercial and Investment banking all the students are required to do a presentation and today is my turn. I am doing the presentation with two other girls. Feeling a bit nervous. Still remember how our lecturer George asked one student: “Where have you got this accent”, because the guy had a very specific accent as he is a BBC reporter.
I like our lecturer George, he is really demanding, but at the same time he likes jokes and having fun, that makes his lectures more interesting. And I am thinking: “Hope he will like my accent then, even though it’s not like those guys’ on BBC. And hope he won’t ask any weird question as he does sometimes…”
“How economic news moves markets.”
Our presentation begins. George looks at the first slide with the title and our names listed.
- Who is Ksenia here?
(God! Now he is gonna ask something weird. He hasn’t heard my accent yet but wants to ask something already. Lucky you, student Ksenia!)
- Me, - I raise my hand.
- What country are you coming from?
- Russia.
He smiles, and says something like: “Ok continue…”
And then I realise why he actually noticed my name. It’s Greek. And George is Greek. Everybody calls him George because it’s easier to pronounce than Yioryos. And maybe he just thought I am from Greece as well.
After the presentations, at the break, I came to Yioryos and asked him, what is so special about my name. He took the marker, wrote on the whiteboard:
Ξένος [Xenos],
and started to explain.
- This letter [Ξ] - when kids learn to read and are confused with it, we explain to them, that it sounds like K and S together – [Ks].
- So writing my name in English this way seems like writing it for kids? Very nice! First time I hear that actually.
It was the first time when a native Greek speaker was explaining to me some peculiarities of my name. And since I knew some of its interpretations before, I was very curious to hear Yioryos’ answer if I ask him what it means. How surprised was I when he told: “Ξένος [Xenos] is a foreigner. And another word - Ξένίος [Xenios] – a person, who gives accommodation to a foreigner.”
Staring at my name written in Greek on the whiteboard the first thing that occurs to me is: “How ironic! I am a “foreigner” all my life as well.”
That’s how after my first month in London I actually realised that now is the time to think where I belong.
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P. S. Many thanks to Nadya for initial grammar check.
Many thanks to Hysm for initial feedback.
Please correct me if you notice any mistakes. I need to switch my mind into English. And I need help.



